And even though we've moved on, it gets so hard to walk away

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2011-08-16T17:15:00.001+08:00

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2010-03-14T21:37:00.002+08:00

besty and me turn fb messages into a msn chat live messenger.
>.<

2010-03-13T21:48:00.003+08:00

2010-03-11T20:36:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KUZZIN ICKA.
(:

you know how much i love you.
<3

2010-03-09T14:48:00.002+08:00

i didnt forget you.

2010-03-06T23:18:00.001+08:00

hansem jugak eh, bapak orang.
xD

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ZI !
<3

2010-03-05T22:32:00.001+08:00

you are never too old to have fun.
<3

2010-03-05T21:18:00.000+08:00

today, this minah will make a great impact on someone's life.
something that you'll never expect.
something that beyond her ability.

it's gonna be a tough journey for her.
i believe she's gonna make it till the end
eventhough she'll be facing alot of obstacles.

she is the minah on a mission.
when she starts, she'll never stop.
and she never give up.

hugs & kisses,
furrydah

2010-03-04T14:07:00.003+08:00

i just cant get enough of him.
he's the sexiest man on earth. <3
J.T. , you are out of my list.
your sexyback doesnt do the magic on me.
>.<

2010-03-03T21:46:00.002+08:00

you make my heart go boom boom pow .
:)

2010-03-02T15:46:00.000+08:00

10 things i wanna do after my exams:

1. a movie date
2. kite-flying my BFF
3. get down with real business
4. clear my stufffs at the study corner
5. sleep and wake up late
6. stone at westmall alone
7. an outing with my polymates
8. blog-shift
9. shopping &
10. a date with you ;)

2010-03-01T15:39:00.001+08:00

i wish im Einstein minus the hair.
(:

2010-02-28T16:07:00.000+08:00

2010-02-18T22:48:00.000+08:00

i think im unintentionally your cute-stalker.
xD

2010-02-17T23:02:00.000+08:00

im telling mama.
tell what?
just tell ah.

2010-02-16T22:53:00.003+08:00

COMING SOON !

AKAN DATANG !
(:

2010-02-15T13:07:00.001+08:00

i'll be getting this book real soon.
(:

2010-02-14T00:19:00.002+08:00

baby,
i want you to come back and pull out the dagger that you left inside me.
it hurts me more when you left it here.
please, pull it out.
i know it's gonna be painful.
but that's the only way i know that
i'll get better in time.

happy chinese new year &
happy valentines day (:

2010-02-12T21:51:00.001+08:00

for your entertainment (:

2010-02-11T22:05:00.001+08:00

being in love is happier than loving someone.

2010-02-10T20:42:00.000+08:00

& it doesnt mean that im a fan of them.
:p

2010-02-07T22:53:00.001+08:00

i'll be back.

2010-02-07T14:36:00.001+08:00

mimpiku hilang di angkasa...

2010-02-03T22:19:00.002+08:00

i was searching a cca leadership video
for CRS discussion cafe at youtube.
and see what i found.

fast-forward to 2:50.
OMGZ!

and im LOL-ing right now.
i miss those days okay?
LOL.

2010-02-02T20:17:00.002+08:00

cause im just a teenage dirtbag baby
yeah im just a teenage dirtbag baby
listen to Taufik Batisah baby with me
wooohoooo! (:

2010-02-01T22:30:00.005+08:00

i cant believe that im actually doing it.

and it feels soo good.
had a great time with fc.reez and attiqa.
kepak ayam aku terlepas.
whipped potato je aku ader hari ni.
*inside jokes*

it has been months we didnt meet up.
just tweeting and chatting online.
and yes! today we finally meet with
ONE MISSION VERY POSSIBLE!

xD

despite of my kepak ayams terlepas on my way,
we managed to get it through together.

so you guys can just wait for the day (:

alright, some of you may not know what the hell im talking about.
i dont want to reveal it now.
you just read their blog
then you know lah hor.
(:

today is the day when our kepaks start to fly,
and learn to eat like omputeh.
*inside jokes*

we'll make sure your roti and butter is soft
before serving them to you.
;)

it's true what they say: time flies when you've having fun.

2010-01-31T20:17:00.002+08:00

me: mane farhan? i need his help.
mak: dalam toilet. jawab pangilan dari bumi.
me: hm. okay.
farhan: WHY ARE YOU STILL HERE?
me: ?
farhan: WHY ARE YOU HERE? WHAT ARE YOU DOING HERE???!!!
me: what the hell are you talking about?!
farhan: YOU ARE SUPPOSED TO BE DOWNSTAIRS! IT'S YOUR WEDDING!! (insert cheeky smile)
me: you (fill in the blank)! then you shouldnt be here too. you should be downstairs helping out with my wedding! (laughs)

crazy boy. deprived of milk.
LOL.
this is how we communicate at home.
it sounds abit harsh but we dont give a damn.
that's how we show our love and concern.

ape nak buat.
i have 2 heroes yang tak menjadi at home.
(referring to my brothers)
i can say that im abit tomboyish but a CMI one.
i kick soccer balls,
i play online games,
i wrestled and
i climbed trees.
in the end of the day,
i cry like a girl.
i wasnt born perfect.

farhan is not a baby anymore.
he's a teenage boy.
he got 1/2 of my attitude and i like it
and he loves to tease me whenever he's bored.
he likes to act abang2 padahal sape yg adek ni.
HAHAHA.

farhan is my lil bro.
he's my lil star,
my companion when im in despair.
you know, how much kakak loves you?
only God knows.
(:

so if you think you are tomboy when you are lil kid,
dont be sad.
becos i was once.
LOL.

completed my GEMS ca, finally.
im left with one assignment.
after that, im done with you CPU!

2010-01-30T19:17:00.005+08:00

what else i have to say.

you left me hanging.

i want it end.

proper closure.

that's when my new journey starts.

it's easier to say than to act it.

you are not in my shoe right now.

i chose to be silence.

& that's doesnt mean that im at the losing end.

im moving on.

& that's doesnt mean im mature enough to deal with the situation.

you deserve a better man.

i want someone who can hurt me badly,

make me cry endlessly every night,

because that's when i know that im imperfect.

2010-01-30T15:09:00.002+08:00

besok, i treat you all lunch k.

meet at my void deck at 1330 hours.

then, you all can eat as much as you can,

pasal besok wedding i.

LOL.

actually it's my neighbour's daughter

at level 3 punya wedding.

nama anak same so

i tumpang glamour boleh tak?

HAHAHAHA!

i told my mum about my wedding downstairs.

black and pink concept you know.

flower2, very lomantic.

& my mum just couldnt stop laughing.

hehe.

ida, stoppit seh.

LOL.

it's only 1500 hours.

they are playing those happy wedding songs.

and they even played 1,2,3 by britney spears.

can i have Give it to me by madonna, pleaassseee?

we were once artist

2010-01-29T23:01:00.004+08:00

i was flipping through the old albums.
reminiscing the times that we spent together.
xD

i just realised that my bangs was perfect during those days.
and i cant believe that im actually wearing selipar jepun and a hip pouch.
akulah manusia yang paling slenge di dunia ini.
HAHAHA!

it's time to show my flaws.
everyone is imperfect.
and that includes me.

anyways, i really love the potrait above.
why?
becos i looked grumpy in the photo
and i did enjoy my kuzzin companion during those days.
<3

i love balloons if you may not know.
and i love balloons that can fly.
:D

i have big ears.
damn.
LOL!

our sense of fashion was really bad.
well, becos our mum chose the clothes for us.
furthermore, we are the girls in the family
so what our brothers wear,
we also wear.
HAHA!

you guys can just LOL at me.
i dont mind.
becos im laughing at it too.

<3

old school

2010-01-28T20:54:00.002+08:00

my microsoft office publisher old school lahh.
-.-

im gonna turn in early today.
good night.

projector check!

2010-01-26T19:31:00.004+08:00

F: you treat her better than me.

L: what? cannot ah?
F: i want sue you.
L: sue me? i got no money!
F: (laughs) nvm. i want one of your hp.
L:(laughs) eh, i can buy iphone already.
F: GOOOOD! den i want your iphone.

lol.

i got kick ass friends. they are my remedy for the long wee hours at school. crap/gossip/bicker/bitch/laugh anything under the sky. i sue you! you no money. nvm. i can have your laptop! lol.

preparation for IDEAS presentation in week 6.
SEMANGAT KAN?
checking out the projector, lighting, audio and ppt slides.

and yes, she did show us a pocong. -.-

i love my kick-ass-polymates can?
(:

you left me hanging

2010-01-24T22:04:00.003+08:00

he left me hanging here with 1001 questions.
i'll be right here waiting even it takes 1001 years for us to meet again.

alhamdulilah.
everything went smoothly
and here we have cute baby kitten.
meow.

kuzzin & me went to meet the baby kitten at the hospital.
(:

i was afraid to hold him because i scare i might break his neck. =/
he is so tiny.
i wanna keep him in my bag and let him play with timun
or listen to my ipod. xD

meet Aryan.
suria dihati makcikmu.
(:

okay, i cant wait to watch him grow.
from tiny lil baby to handsome young man.

imy.

hello farah! ni kak faridah :D

2010-01-23T18:02:00.003+08:00

i added this lil girl at facebook.
her name is farah.
she's cute and i must say that she's really smart.

thanks to attiqa that i got to know her.
(:

cun saja

2010-01-22T23:19:00.005+08:00

so many guys at the bus-stop.

i so shyyyy.

i cant help it to smile sheepishly and rushed up to the escalator.

the sight of manly men in my poly makes me feels wooooo.

im not mentel or whatever. imagine yourself walking towards the bus-stop
and a bunch of manly men from SMA/EEE looking at your direction
where as they supposed to watch the other sidebecos their buses will come arriving anytime.

so do you know how it feels?

i hope diorg gi friday prayer ah.

kalau tak, i minus points.

HAHAHA.

ZZZZzzZzz...

i dont know why.

it feels like baby is just beside and telling that everything gonna be fine.

im not upset or angry with you.
i maybe be overacted for what you've done.
you dont want to hurt someone you dearly love,
that's why you want it this way.
baby, i understand.

if you are hungry for food,
you know where to find it.

i got married! i got married!

2010-01-21T20:15:00.009+08:00

do you still remember that day when we just met?

we spent 1hr 30mins at the main library playing RISK?

what tickles me is none of us know how to play it.
we confidently borrowed and played
and created our own rules.
HAHAHA!

today is different.
we were given 40mins of waiting time for OM CA today.
so we decided to go to the Hilltop library and lepak while waiting.
while lepak-ing, we played the game of life within the short period of time.
it was impromptu, and we just head on with the idea
since we are so packed with deadlines
and need something to de-stress.

"WAAAA!! I GET BOYFRIEND!"
"EH! I GOT MARRIED! I GOT MARRIED!!!"
"WHERE'S MY MONEY? GIMME MY MONEY!!!"
"EH! I GOT TWINS SEHH."

anyone who was the the hilltop library,
if you heard those phrases above,
IT'S JUST US.

xD

let's play again after next week.
when most of our presentations and report deadlines
are officially dead.
(:

im forever young.
how about you?
(:

im fine, really.
dont worry.
(:

i want degree celsius only.

2010-01-20T20:28:00.003+08:00

so you guys must work extra extra hard okay. because i want those who has degree celsius. no degree celsius, i dont want okay. im going to be a diploma holder in 2012 so you must be better than me okay? if you are diploma holder also can but your pay must higher than me okay? it will be better if you are better than my elder brother but i dont think you can. so keep it to degree celsius okay? (:

feminin turn a sad song to a happy one. (:
ignore those crappy clothes with stripes.
focus on the lyrics. they are meaningful.

after you watched this video,
it starts the day im gonna move on.

thank you for everything, baby.

you touched my boobie. how?

2010-01-19T21:28:00.003+08:00

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2010-01-19T21:05:00.001+08:00

To love or to be loved?

both. i want to be loved and i love everyone who loves me. (:

Ask me anything

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2010-01-18T20:39:00.002+08:00

Ask me anything http://formspring.me/furrydah

depart of the question & kayi-square

2010-01-18T18:49:00.009+08:00

i had a great time my babies in school. i want them to be called babies because they are cute and adorable. well, not surprisingly they are much younger than me except for other 2. balik rumah, gi buat babies k.

random activity that we do whenever we are free. we, poly students very busy one hor. one the remedy to cure the stress of projects deadlines, lack of sleep and chocolate overdose - do the webcam and be a loony.

zi's voice at the back complaining pasal postpone appointment or whatt?

i think my stats tutor will remember and will never forget my name. the conversation went like this,

"you understand the question? you faridah right? faridah." (in indian native accent)
"hmm. yes. faridah."
"you understand the question? you got the lowest marks in class."(in indian native accent)
"but...i didnt fail. xD"

i want to vote him for the best/sweetest/random tutor can? xD i promise i pass my final semester paper k. :D

i skipped SA programme for 3 weeks in a row. =S

so as usual, pagi2 buat muke sardine bawak laptop without the case and then realise one of the rubber stand is missing. -.-

member merajok tak datang skolah pasal tak dapat kad birthday. LOL.
(inside jokes)

living with a lie, feels like a dummy

2010-01-18T10:30:00.000+08:00

baby, you went beyond my limit.

we patched 2 weeks ago.
since baby decided to give it another try.
yes,we didnt tell the whole world.
we promised each other that keep it as a secret.
so we did.
i made it private.

baby texted me and wanted to meet his parents.
eventhough it freaked me,
but still i agreed.
just waitng for his call.

school term starts,
deadlines and school commitments
are keeping us busy.
i understand.
i went through same path as him.

he treated me as invisible.
i texted and called him.
just to make sure that he's fine with school.
but what i got is my echo.

baby told me that he'll be using prepaid for the time being
and he wanted to use it wisely till the bill is fully paid.
i faham.
i still sms you tapi
you tak reply.

i know you called me but i was having my tutorial.
i called back but you werent there.

6 days in row.
im still invisible in his eyes.
where were you on our
1st year anniversary?

i wonder whether girl knows that
the boy who she is happily excitedly having
good time with him,was still attached with his gf.

170110

2010-01-17T23:39:00.002+08:00

this is what you have been looking forward to.
im given it up to you.

just forget about us,
i dont wish to remember anything about us.

let's end it here.
dont ask me why.
you should know it better than me.

i need a companion

2010-01-16T23:48:00.002+08:00

i want a guinea ~~babi~~ pig for a companion. i find them adorable and friendly lil rodents. they are cute, chubby and most importantly, they want to be loved by humans. since humans can love each other. those quarrels and fightings really make me feel that animals behave better than humans. =/ i want this cute lil furry animal as my companion when im alone. afterall, timun needs a new friend. and this will help to slove his loneliness when im busy with school.

firstly, i have to convince my mum that im responsible enough to keep it. secondly, i need a space for my new companion here. and im still figuring out where should i keep it. thirdly, i need to psycho both of my brothers so that i have supporters to support me - 3 vs 1. and lastly, i need to find a real job so that i can pamper this furry animal with all my love.

im tired. done with my fom. and i need my rest.
iCycling at ECP was fun!
(:

@_@

2010-01-16T01:04:00.001+08:00

do you remember?

i want you, you, YOU!

2010-01-11T20:20:00.007+08:00

"wah, you can be a good wife ah. but you also must be sociable okay. must go out with us."

im so excited today. i bought all the ingredients for making pasta. thank you kok woon and paul for the companion and guidance at the shop n save just now. and im apologise if i took too much time to decide what to buy. *insert please forgive me face*

anyways, i decided to cook pasta for baby. i wanted to make brownie for him but i felt that cooking will be a great idea too. i remembered cooking fried macaroni for him and it's too spicy. and i made him konnyaku jellies too. xD

i was looking for a piece of paper that attiqa wrote the recipe for the pasta. and guess what i found,

i didnt realise that im under the fiknatk fans clan till i found this. =/

i actually cut out articles about him and paste them on my A4 book. omg.

if baby knows about this, he's gonna get pisang by me. i spent so much on TB than him. @_@

broad shoulder, big tummy

2010-01-09T21:37:00.003+08:00

i changed my blogskin and edited some areas. =/

it's getting much more difficult to communicate with baby. he cant text me as much as before. :( but i'll text him and not expecting any reply. it's okay. as long as my msg is sent to him, im more than happy. (: i didnt get to meet baby this week. so, im praying hard that i could him next week. i really miss him alot like many many many misses. :(

i wanted to un-private my blog but i feel it's not the right time yet. just wait for baby to graduate. then i can make my blof un-private. im really sorry for those who secretly google and read my blog. so for now, you can google and click on the link but you cant read the whole chunks of crap here because you are not invited. =/

i want to tell my mum that my whole body is aching due to ytd's training but i guess i know what her reaction will be. i just realised that my parents dont really play a part in decision making of my life. basically, they will their children decide for themselves. and im trying to get use to it because usually my parents will decide where and what i should do. but for now, they are more lenient and let me the freedom to decide for myself. they do empathises that family is first priority. sounds serious eh. *goosebumps*

im listening to TB's Blessings album.

im getting old each day.
im turning 22 this year.

2010-01-08T23:23:00.004+08:00

BABY, WHERE ARE YOU???

i called you so many times, you tak angkat. baby tido eh? :(
i miss your voice. i miss your voice. i miss your voice.

i'll just text him before i go to bed.
im missing him sooo much.
:(

baby, i love you.

2010-01-07T21:45:00.002+08:00

"amacam poly. okay?"
"okay lah. hahaha."
"hahha. i tengok muke kau shag seh. (:"

and yes im feeling really shag the whole week. i slept alot and stress alot. =/ anyways, i overslept this morning and i skipped CRS. heh. so tired lah. i have projects and reports to complete. and i can feel my head is aching and my eyes are becoming like a pair of panda eyes. so many things to do in so little time. i want to sleep and sleep till im happy. @_@

i did CRS and starting abit on IDEAS ppt slides. and im going to start with my FOM tmr. at least some research as a headstart of this boring life. and i cant wait for my holidays. i need to mug for my final semester. so stress you know. so many things. haish. i want baby to be with me now. i need a hug. a HUGE HUG please.

and im gonna make brownie for baby. see, i got tonnes of stuffs to do. OMG. -.-

2010-01-06T00:12:00.001+08:00

i cant get enough of this boy.
im addicted to you.

2010-01-04T23:52:00.000+08:00

i love you more than you love me.
(:

2010-01-03T21:59:00.002+08:00

im still thinking about something that lingers in my head. :(

school starts tmr and im not really prepared for it. when school starts, im gonna get busy with projects, tutorials, revision and hfdjafjhjfs. haish.

anyways, i helped my mum marinating the chicken for dinner. and they look pale after mixing them with blackpepper, garlic and honey.

and this is the outcome. @_@

i want to make brownie for somebody.
hee.

2010-01-03T01:18:00.002+08:00

i decided to switch my twitter to private for a purpose. i didnt know that i have tonnes of paparazzi who have been following my tweets for the past few days/months/years! i didnt realise it soon after baby told me that his friends actually been following me through my twitter updates. and they know what the hell im been doing right now and the past few days. :(

im making everything private for time being. escaping from the maddening crowd. those paparazzi who got nothing better to do. xD

i completed my ppt slides finally. phew. now, i got
1. IDEA ppt
2. CRS essay - BOOOOO!
3. FOM ppt & report
4. PTH report
5. SA program workshit
6. PACC tutorial

UNDONE.

thank you ALLAH for today.
amin.

2010-01-02T12:28:00.003+08:00

i never feel this way.
so sexcited to meet you later.
i miss you sooo much.
and i love you too.
<3

i just want to be with you
under the hot sunny
day and in the stormy rain.
<3

thank God for giving this opportunity to meet baby again.
im praying for the best of us.

2010-01-02T02:44:00.003+08:00

please make my wish come true.

2010-01-01T17:18:00.001+08:00

a new year and a new blogskin.
and dahhlurfesyou.blogspot.com will be public in January 2010.
insya-allah.

happy 2010!

2009-12-28T01:07:00.000+08:00

im leaving tmr. will be back by wednesday or thursday.

goodbye.

2009-12-27T15:41:00.003+08:00

girl : how much do you love me?
boy : i love you more than i love my own life.
girl : to you, who am i?
boy : you are more than just another person in my life. you are my life.
girl : are you happy with what happened to us now?
boy : im not happy at all ok what's happening to us now.
girl : what will make you happy?
boy : if you lead a good and happy life will make me more than happy.
girl : im not happy with my life now.
boy : then what will make you certainly happy then?
girl : to be with you who i truly love and go thru the thick and thin together. and allow us to be together again as before.
boy : (no reply.)

2009-12-27T04:00:00.001+08:00

2009-12-26T22:07:00.007+08:00

he texted me at 2:28am to tell me that he wanted to say that he loves me before it's too late. and the next day, he texted me again, telling me that he had a nightmare about me gone in his life. i didnt care less about it. i replied, good afternoon baby and not hoping that he will text me again. and well, it's true enough. i didnt bother to text him today.

he postponed the meet-up. he just wouldnt want to see me again. im not his gf and i cant say that im his friend too. my status is still unknown. when he's alone, i wonder whether he will be thinking about me. he said he will feel lost and empty when im not in his life anymore and i want him to feel that way. i dont want to treated as his boxers. choose the one you like most, when it torn, you threw at one corner and enjoy the other boxers. after you get bored with the boxers, then you realised the old torn boxers still fit the best.

i dont know how long this will go on. he loves me but he wants me to leave him but he will not leave me. only Confucians understand this becos i understand it. we still love each other but why this has to happen. why cant we start all over again and learn from our mistakes?

2009-12-25T22:12:00.002+08:00

look at that cute lil girl.
she's so adorable.
she called and he answered the phone.
they laughed and talked like lovers.
she gave him a good night kiss before she hung up the phone.

& that didnt happen to me.

2009-12-23T01:12:00.001+08:00

you're the one that
i need in my arms
believe me these words
i say are words that come straight from my heart
how do I make you believe
nothing else means as much as what you mean to me

i love you.

2009-12-22T16:57:00.000+08:00

aku lemah tanpa kamu
ku inginmu dampingi ku
aku fahami aku bukan terbaik
untuk dirimu

sampai syurga ku menunggu
sampai syurga ku cintamu
Hanya kamu

2009-12-21T23:12:00.003+08:00

i lost someone who i truly love. and i hate myself for this mishap to happen. it's all my fault. im stupid, insensitive, ugly, pathetic human who ever live on the earth. i cant save my own relationship and i feel shitty about myself. why cant i solve the problem. why cant we do this together.why you have to do this to me. why you giving up on me. am i that pathetic?

i tried so many ways to mend our problem but you never give a chance. why? because you love soo much that you cant bear to hurt me?it's bullshit. if you truly love me, you would have given me another chance. why are you running away from the reality? why you have to left it all hanging in the air? why i deserve someone better when i already found someone who i will be with for the entire life. i didnt know that you so heartless and selfish. you didnt care about what i feel about this. i shared to you but you still insist to stick to your decision.

he doesnt know how much tears that i cried for him. didnt he bother to ask whether im okay or not. and the next day, he would texted you good morning. so what's your plan today? that's all you want to know. denial. trying to show that he's moving on and assuming that im okay about the incident.

i dont want any men in my life anymore. my heart is closed. for those who secretly admiring me, im really sorry. i wont be accepting anyone. from now on, i will leave everything to God to decide my future spouse.

my parents are starting to like you,
but you have to leave.

2009-12-21T14:08:00.002+08:00

i will wait even it takes a thousand years.
i will fly to the night sky and bring a star for you.
i will swim deep in the ocean to get the most beautiful pearl on earth.(even i dont even know how to float)

i just cant say im pretty when tears dall down my face.

why

2009-12-21T00:07:00.002+08:00

why wouldnt you give me a second chance? i didnt know all the scarifies that i made just to stay with you is just a waste. like those you threw it into the rubbish chute. i had to ask for a second chance and why wouldnt he give me opportunity to be with again. what i did do till he would make this sudden decision.

i dont want to be with anyone. not even those you could give me everything in this world. i want your love and only you. being closefriends is more hurtful than breaking up.

bestie is going back camp.
kuzzin will be starting her first of work tmr.
my bff is engaged.

& im counting the pieces of heart bits that you broke it.

:(

2009-12-20T21:24:00.001+08:00

i dont want anybody but you.

sony ericsson

2009-12-19T21:19:00.002+08:00

i woke up in the morning with nothing to look forward to.
your text messages occupied my boring day but it didnt occupy this empty heart.

this maybe the last time you will hurt me.
but for me, it will last for a lifetime.

so what now,
im single and unavailable or
attached and available?

it ended to be goodfriends

2009-12-18T21:34:00.004+08:00

i feel like a shyte in the toilet bowl and waiting to be flushed down to sewage to join in the fun with other shyte from all over the world. and i dont think anyone would want to flush the toilet bowl becos im hideous and ugly. no one dares to come near me becos im sucks and they knew it.

what else men can do to hurt us more than this? i cant believe that it will come to an end. why men do the manly-0ne-to-one talk thru text messages? NOT man enough to pick my calls and reply our text msgs? if they replied you means you are lucky and it's vice-versa, get ready 10 tissue boxes because they gonna say something mean to you. im not picking on anyone. through my experience, this what i went through and it happened again for the third time and all thanks to the heartless species - men.

okay. whatever. you may reading this and that's good. because you hurt me so much today that i could cry a swimming pool for you to swim till your heart content. i think this what men loves to see becos they think they are very powerful. and if they are, try walking in heels for 12 hours to prove me wrong.

i spent an hour crying in the room without my mum suspicious. im good at that. i cry when no one is looking and wet the whole pillow with my tears. timun is a sweetheart. he always been there for me.

i dont know whether to love you or to hate you. i dont know why you have to make this decision and it's going to affect my whole life now. i feel that i had wasted my 11 months with you. 11 months maybe a two-digit number to you but for me, it meant a whole lot than what you can imagine.

i kept almost all the text msg that you sent me. i thought of making a collage for our 1 year anniversary but it will not gonna happen. i took almost 2 hours to take the screenshots of the text msges with the digi-cam. okay, why am i telling you this. it doesnt affect you right?

why are you still saying that you love me
when we are just goodfriends?
isnt that contradicting?
we know that we love each other.
and why all this has to happen?
i might walkaway and nv return to you
eventhough i promised that i wont leave you.
tonight, you made me feel like a poo.

IMY

2009-12-17T21:37:00.000+08:00

baby, i miss you.

watcha say

2009-12-12T23:28:00.003+08:00

i had bowling session with the 4PM people/clique. :) i couldnt remember the last i actually bowl. i think i when i played at baby's place and i had an arm cramp the next day. haha. currently, im feeling really bored. i watched twilight, i paused and continue to search some excitement on the internet. i dont know why, i'll get nervous watching twilight especially when im alone in the room with no lights on. entah lah knape, kental lah kau, ida.

after the bowling session and collected my ka-ching ka-ching, met bestie to pass him movies so that he could watch it on ipod touch. ipod touch k, not iphone. i smack his face because he told me it iphone when it is actually ipod touch. nevermind, i have ipod nano. not that advance but can watch movies on the move. lol.

it seems i dont exist in your life anymore.
i feel the regret sometimes.
choosing you but not him.

hello ugly. im beautiful!

2009-12-09T21:16:00.002+08:00

i think i just killed my stats tutor and lecturer. im so dead when they received my answer scripts which is more to scribbling than showing workings and formulas. =s

in the midst for studying for my paper tmr, i decided to spend 5 mins here.

anyways, farhan has a blog.

i had a quick chat with an old friend. i didnt expected that he would talk to me after been silence for almost a year. he's someone who you nv believe that i would be one of this friends. he's young enough to be my younger bro so it's not wrong to have friends from different age group right? get to know this kid during the school visit for connectsg last year. exchanged email and walla walla walla add frienster, msn and facebook BOOM. now, we are kawan.

enough about his background info. i was glad that he asked my well-doings although i was stressed out with my previous paper and also my baby. however, his concern made my night and revision a meaningful one. im not sided him or whatever lah. im trying to point out that by asking how you been doing, great? and other questions that you can think of, actually can make someone's day a better one. and be surprised that i didnt answer him,"life sucks. i think i just screwed my stats. my bf is busy and im alone like a stone. you know what, i feel like giving up now." and instead, i replied ,"been great! :D" instead. can you see the contradiction but in a good way.

one thing that he doesnt have but you do - love

2009-12-07T13:08:00.000+08:00

hint me if you dont want this to end.
or i will take it as otherwise.

where are you?

2009-12-07T01:40:00.002+08:00

E.M.P.T.Y

upgrading

2009-12-06T01:57:00.000+08:00

& my blog is under construction again.
(:

2009-12-05T00:18:00.003+08:00

i dont know im being too harsh to you.
im keeping quiet because i dont know what to say.

maybe it's my mistake.

2009-12-02T23:48:00.001+08:00

i dont know what to say.
it's not going anywhere.

who am i?

im a nobody.

2009-11-30T01:30:00.002+08:00

1001 reasons why i love you.

aku lupa lupa saja deh.

2009-11-20T22:02:00.001+08:00

enjoy the video (:

can i join you?

2009-11-19T01:25:00.005+08:00

i miss the days i spent with them.
i miss the days i have dozen of projects but i didnt whine about it.
i miss the days when i look into the mirror, and i feel good.
i miss the days i get to sit on the train every morning at 7 am.
i miss the days when im with them and i feel elevated.
i miss the days that we had to spend 3 hours of break and hanging out at the library.
i miss the days we spent doing projects in the morning at the library.
i miss the days we laugh and joke everyday.
i miss the days i will wait for him after school almost everyday.
i miss the days i can watch him in action at the student hub.
i miss the days i can peep him from far at the canteen.
i miss the days that i have to carry laptop for her to class everyday.
i miss the clicking and typing sound of the keyboard.
i miss the number 437.
i miss the day that we got drenched becos your umbrella broke half way.
i miss the day when we went to newton to check out the outfits for timun.
i miss the day we spent together when the other are not around during our last race.
i miss the day chatting with you on the way back home.
make it simple - i miss them so much and no words can describe how precious they are in my life.

i thank God for letting me to meet them.
like you they teased me before we ride this trishaw together.
ily & imy.

busy bumble bee

2009-11-16T22:09:00.002+08:00

been busy with school .
i enjoy watching lady gaga's MV .
:D

baby, love you tau.

new look

2009-11-09T21:26:00.000+08:00

blog is under construction.
(:

:(

2009-11-08T16:44:00.002+08:00

i feel that we are difting away. im trying my best to bring everything in place. im really sorry for being judegmental to you. i admit that im not the same person that i used to be. all those fighting and arguements didnt bring me closer to you. it made me to hate you more. i have been thinking about us lately. im still loving you like the first time. im sorry that we have to go through this.

period.

2009-11-06T15:30:00.001+08:00

some random stuffs that i want to share (:

bad boys

2009-11-02T23:18:00.001+08:00

baby used to be a bad boy
when he was in high school .
he's a bad boy now still .
& im loving it .

sayang baby *smooches*

yay to weekends, nay to weekdays

2009-11-01T23:58:00.003+08:00

i didnt update my blog as frequently as before. perhaps after my MST and that will be in 4 weeks? im not really sure about it though. im sure for real that i'll up my tweet. so if i didnt update my blog, can browse through the tweets and roughly know what going on with my blingkabushing life. anyways, anyone wants to be in my guest list for 4PM Bestari Award? PM me lah okay. cant believe im promoting this event. well becos i will be there and yes, imran ajmain will be there too. why ppl doesnt like going to this formal event. come lah. if you sick of seeing me walking up the stage to receive the cert, do come and want imran performance lah. fill up the whole auditorium lagi best.

i didnt have much time to update my blog. my assignments are piling up and i haven do my accounts tutorial yet. and i have not receive any news about the retest. ugh. what else? IDEA and PTH presentation on tues and fri respectively. SPSS CA3 which gonna take place tmr. FOM PBL project gonna make my life worst and OM too. OM sounds more to Operation Manager but it stants for Organisal Mgmt actually. fuh. so many stuffs to do.

im so desperate to have my weekends back. that's the only time i could rest my meat on the bed. no need to wake early and squeeze in the train. its choatic lah.

i wish im a barbie doll so that i could dismantle my legs and replace with a new one.

anyways, enjoy this snippets of the killers-i've got soul but i've not a soldier.

i've got a toast but im not a toaster :p

tell me why.

2009-10-28T22:01:00.003+08:00

sometimes i questioned myself
whether im the shiny diamond among the gems.

the sick hamsters

2009-10-22T21:52:00.003+08:00

introducing the sick hamsters of the month,

i hearts so shy boy

2009-10-13T23:35:00.002+08:00

baby pemalu.
i loike!

Jom party at community club!

2009-10-12T20:27:00.002+08:00

firstly, i want my hair to like hers. & no to hair extension because mine is already look like one of those fake hair.

secondly, JOM PARTY AT THE COMMUNITY CLUB!

GEMS ATTACK!

2009-10-12T16:42:00.002+08:00

i didnt know that registering for General Elective Modules (GEMS) is full of nervousness and suspension than checkong my results. firstly, it's like first-come-first-served basis. so those who has genetic thread of a nyonya will have an advantage. secondly, we have to wait like the next 6 hours for the second appointment. itulah pun nasib ah kalau ader slot. thirdly, the system will lag because of compiling the courses. mane tak lag, orang kiasu mcm aku log in at 3pm sharp. lastly, the course that i want is FULL. sape lah tak boring.

my ideal GEMS was Backpacking - The Way to Global Mindset. ceh. gla to the mour kan. but i missed it lah. so, i managed to squeeze my arse into Build Your Own Personal Computer. fuuhh. this is technologyextravanganzatothemaxmcmpaham. anyways, im looking for the for that module.

& i shall start mugging tonight.

birthday spree

2009-10-06T12:41:00.002+08:00

happy birthday to all October babies (: mine is already over and it feels great to be 17 again. anyways, i went for my class gathering/bbq yesterday at pasir ris park. thank you for the birthday and small tokens. really appreciate it very much. (:

17 again

2009-10-05T10:24:00.004+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY !

thank you for all the well wishes from twitter, facebook, sms, msn or to the extend to be at the doorsteps. all of you are very sweet like candy lahh. (:

i will make a thank you list for these candies for making my 21st birthday a sweet one (:

siti, el, zi, baby, fatimah, kuzzin icka, lee hyu, yu cheng, angela, hazel, jeaneve, shashina, fara, nurin, caiyun, nadia, ahmad, kok woon, shikin, siying, meenyi, nicole, sukri, sasa, sharon, attiqa, azimah, matthew, denise, jiaqi, judi, miaohua, liyana, chu wei, fauzin, yani, valerie, jefferson, qian huai, herlina, cheng yang, mad, isma, hadi , mas, liana, ilona, liyun, aini, khadijah, muhi, zaya, zara, aisyah, @hidhub, @Daaneee, fareez, mak long, abd eddy, kak ina, my mum, my dad, a'an and abg farid.

will end this post with a birthday song dedicated to me from the click five (:
baik ke perrr? :p

im the greatest fool

2009-10-03T13:11:00.003+08:00

i must be stupid
must be crazy
must be out of my mind
to say the kind of things I said last night

post it lahh

2009-10-01T21:42:00.005+08:00

Post It notes are very fun to play with. you know what i mean. pasting those notes on the wall and books with some important notes on them.

when i was in OTC (officer trainee cadet), the instructor taught us how to brainstorm and solve problems using the post-it notes. and you know what, i skipped that lecture with my other mates. cool shyte or what. haha. anyways, i learnt that method when i was in secondary 3. so, it's like quite rusty in my brain now. =/

well, post it notes is useful when it comes to leaving messages for your friends, mum or your partner. messages can be vary like "BABY, I LOVE YOU! XOXOXO " or maybe something like "IMPORTANT! DIE DIE MUST DO!" or "How about lunch today, baby?". furthermore, there are different vibrant colours to choose from - from yellow to orange, pink(my favourite) to blue and green and in different sizes too! i love the big ones. :p

these post it notes really can convey the messages thru using multiple of post it notes from different colours and sizes. it is very helpful for those shy ladies/men out there. after you watched this video, you will understand why. en to the joy ppl!

post cruise

2009-10-01T16:56:00.002+08:00

im still feeling giddy and nausea but i keep telling myself that im on the shore now. sitting on the concrete floor and typing this in the room. maybe im dehydrated during the sea cruise. i dont really know whether i was enjoying myself during the cruise because it felt like study trip pluse some talks and visits to the some places. overall, it will rate 8.5/10.

firstly, i want more sleep. sleep and wake up at my own will. no forcing myself to wake up soo early and sleep soooo late. my body needs to rest. as you grow older, the you will understand. or maybe im just not healthy. prolly the next best time will be during my honeymoon. and i want it to be FREE & EASY. not attached to any tour guide agency or school trip. JUST ME & MY HUBBY (:

anyways, the meals were great except for the the gala dinner. soup kambing for appetizer? kobis kunyit for the main course? okaylah , not that pathetic. there are actually other dishes but i just want to highlight this. it was so not appealing lah. why? why? why? and the best dishes that i ever had for the dinner was the local fruits.

okaylah. i dont want to complain about the meals over there. anyways, it was a great experience for me and my other course mates. (:

more photos will be uploaded at fb by this week. fb is not friendly to me today.

& HAPPY CHILDRENS DAY!

And even though we've moved on, it gets so hard to walk away

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we were once artist

old school

projector check!

you left me hanging

hello farah! ni kak faridah :D

cun saja

i got married! i got married!

i want degree celsius only.

you touched my boobie. how?

formspring.me

formspring.me

depart of the question & kayi-square

living with a lie, feels like a dummy

170110

i need a companion

@_@

i want you, you, YOU!

broad shoulder, big tummy

why

:(

sony ericsson

it ended to be goodfriends

IMY

watcha say

hello ugly. im beautiful!

where are you?

upgrading

aku lupa lupa saja deh.

can i join you?

busy bumble bee

new look

:(

period.

bad boys

yay to weekends, nay to weekdays

tell me why.

the sick hamsters

i hearts so shy boy

Jom party at community club!

GEMS ATTACK!

birthday spree

17 again

im the greatest fool

post it lahh

post cruise

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